Monday, October 10, 2011

And the Mist Clears...

Yesterday at church I heard the most beautiful analogy/story and I can't help but to share it with you. Its one of those things that you hear and it touches you so much that you want everyone you know to feel that same way. As the pastor was sharing, I began to jot down some notes and so here is my version of his story with some embellishments and a few thoughts of my own added on.




Lets imagine that you moved to Washington state during the 'gray season' where its always overcast and the clouds constantly fill the sky. The locals tell you that there is a beautiful mountain nearby. You look around in disbelief and up at the dense clouds and ask where is this mountain? They point towards one of the clouds and say 'Right over there'. You scoff at them, because as long as you  have lived there you have never seen anything but clouds, clouds, and more clouds. As the days and weeks drag on, the more you hear about this mountain and how wonderful it is without ever actually seeing any definitive proof, the more you begin to think this whole notion of a mountain existing somewhere out in the cloud cover is a big hoax. Its not that you don't want to believe in the mountain, you want to, but it just seems impossible. You soon reach a point where you so doubt the claims of a mountain that you decide to rebel. You form a Mountain Deniers Club and hold meetings in a local coffee shop. Of course, at these meetings you often are interrupted by people who claim to have seen the mysterious mountain and you argue back and forth often about its existence. But these arguments get you no closer to discovering if there is actually anything behind the clouds.

You come to the realization the only real way to solve the mystery is to head out in the direction of the supposed mountain. So you set out on your journey but its hard to see where your feet are taking you because of the fog. Soon you notice that you are climbing and that the trail is switch-backing its way upwards. Your faith begins to grow a little stronger. As you climb higher, the clouds start to thin and you begin to see the outline of the mountain you are climbing. Its not completely clear to you, but you start to believe in it. Eventually, you reach the top and the mist clears and you can finally see it in all its glory, completely revealed, and all of its majesty is there for you to behold.

Isn't that the most beautiful thing you've ever heard? When the pastor told this story, I could picture the whole scene in my head - the beautiful mountains shrouded in fog, the winding trail, and the sun breaking through the mist revealing the beauty awaiting the traveler. I could see myself on the journey and feel the joy of finally seeing the thing I had heard so much about and wanted to know for myself.

And isn't this the only way to truly find and come to know God? You have to set out in His direction. You don't have to believe necessarily that what you're looking for is out there, but you just start to move towards it. And eventually you find yourself smack dab in the middle of His presence and your doubts fade. Rob Bell, an author I enjoy, described it in one of his books like jumping on a trampoline. He said that if the trampoline was a relationship with God then all the springs are the doctrines of the faith. You don't necessarily have to believe in all of those springs to start jumping. And Paul, another author who I admire, said this about the end result of taking a journey up a mountain we're not so sure exists "we find ourselves standing where we always hoped we might stand – out in the wide open spaces of God’s grace and glory". 


Sometimes I sense that we think have to wait until we have all the answers before we can start a relationship with Christ, but from what I can tell that seems to be the furthest from the truth. You just have to start, whether you picture yourself jumping on a trampoline or you see yourself on the journey to an unknown place, once you do that, He'll take care of the rest. He's already done all the work, its up to us to make the move towards Him.



Sunday, October 2, 2011

When It Rains, It Pours

If you had asked me last week at this time what my biggest concern was than I would have told you it was getting a job. Fast forward to yesterday, and I would have had to tell you that it was choosing between two job offers. Funny how God works isn't it?

This past week I was offered three different nursing jobs over the course of three different days. I went from having no potential jobs and feeling at a loss for what should be my next step to being overwhelmed by my employment options. It started Wednesday when I received a voicemail message from one hospital telling me that although they had filled the full time position I had applied for that they were interested in hiring me on as a per diem nurse. On Thursday, I received a call from another hospital in Jackson, MI offering me a full time Registered Nurse position on a cardiopulmonary medical surgical floor on the night shift. Finally, on Friday, I was also offered another full time Registered Nurse position on a general medical surgical floor on the night shift along with an every other weekend rotation for a hospital in Grand Rapids. 

As exciting as multiple job offers are, they also posed a new problem - having to choose between the two full time offers. Before getting the third offer, I admittedly had prayed that they wouldn't offer me the job so that the decision would be made for me as ridiculous as that may sound. However, as you know that is not how the situation played out, and instead I was faced with weighing the pros and cons of each offer. And after a lot of time and thinking and praying and re-thinking, I was finally able to make a decision. 

So now I can proudly say that I am an employee of 6 NorthWest at Allegiance Health in Jackson. I am so thankful for this opportunity and excited to (finally) begin my nursing career. Unfortunately, the job doesn't start till the beginning of November because of their orientation schedule, but there's an upside to that as well. Remember the first job offer for a per diem position? I'm still waiting to get in touch with them, but I'm hoping that I will be able to pick up some shifts there while I wait for my full time position to begin. And if not, then I will take the time to enjoy one last month of unemployment and free time before I join the rest of the working world. 

And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, 
to them who are the called according to his purpose. (Romans 8:28)